Even when you are in the grip of depression, there can be moments of light.
These are the moments I cling to, cherish and want to share with the world.
To remind myself and perhaps even one person reading that living is worth the effort.
Recently driving home from work I stopped to investigate a curious object on the road…
A Thorny Devil!
Thankful for the gloves in my work bag, I scooped him (or her) up from the road where sunbaking was going to mean being squished for sure and moved to a safer spot.
Although native to Australia and apparently plentiful, I have only seen a Thorny Devil once before in my life… Behind glass in captivity. This meeting was a pleasure and blessing.
I took photos and videos to share with my children. Miss 4 decided this gentle lizard would be christened “Super Hero Lizard” because in her mind the vibrant camouflage colouring was a costume. In this moment her enthusiasm and joy was infectious and I basked in it.
So to anyone reading I would like to offer you a thought.
When depression has you gripped tight and you can’t seem to think of a reason to want to live perhaps you can borrow my reason…
Because there will always be moments that you will not want to have missed.
It doesn’t matter if the moment is huge and momentous or something smaller like simply rescuing a lizard and feeling happy.
What is important is the knowledge that even if the black dog is telling you it is hopeless and pointless to live that is a lie.
Tomorrow you could feel joy for a moment. That is worth living for.